Im confuse....

almost 1 month ....
we chat we skype
How i treat u
how u treat me...
all in my mind...

recently u think alot...
that i cant how to answer...
SORRY !

i made u mad again...
this time...
seems so serius..

i had drunk when i text with u...
sorry that i said something like disrespect you...
its sound like im not CARE about you and is because of my LUST !

PRETENDING ?!
NO!that i can confirm is from begin until now ...
i never pretend anything
Care,Concern,Worry,Love,Miss...
All is real,sincere truthly come from my heart...
ONE LOVE !

Im very miss you now !
Dont want me le...its very hurt HAHAHA deeply bring me to the Fucking HELL !
im crazy because im really fall for you already...
HAHAHA im NOOB SI BODOH !
because of this fucking alcohol make my MIND became SUCK !
REGRET ?! YEA ! im fucking regret now !
But...
USELESS ! Shouldnt happen but its ALREADY happended !

what was im thinking now ?! FUCK OFF all my mind pls !
Now i need alcohol again...
this time i hope i wont get wake up keep in drunk condition please !
BECAUSE IM VERY MISS YOU NOW !
WHAT SHOULD I DO ?
TOO FAR...PROBLEM always OCCURS !

About you geh thing ur news im CARE enough !
I never think i want to hurt you...
but..
im NOOB...
EPIC FAILED

what should i tell u...
Dear, im miss you...how are you now..are you OK ? sorry that i hurt you..im not purposely want to hurt you...
sorry for keep text you...because im worry about you...i hope i can get ur forgiveness...SORRY a thousand of appologize...please forgive im noob that always made u sad and mad...

A guys that everything dare to do...
but face to the relationship problem
SHIT ! FAILED !
just can hide at the bed and cry...